Generalnya di minggu minggu ini nih, agak sebel sama kelas aja. Ada peer nggak ngasih tau secara jelas. Ketauan banget aih! Apalagi sama salah satunya. Pengen gue cubit bener rasanya. Ya wajar kan sih gue nggak tau! Orang gue aja dispen, masih nanya peer ke gue! Gue yang emang udah ngerjain peer itu akhirnya nunjukin, dengan harapan yang gue kerjain itu bener. Malah dengan enaknya nyalahin gue. Hell oooooooooooooooo. Udah nyalahin tetep aja ngikutin gue! Curse you! Bête banget nggak sih lo? Orang yang kopas bener bener total. Mending kayak terselubung tuh, ada sumbernya kan diakhir info? Pokoknya gue makin yakin sama omongan guru guru deh. Lain kali gue nggak mau lagi minjemin lo atau bantuin lo kalo nggak kepaksa. Ure have been blacklisting on my mind!

rabo kemaren seneng di LLIA, ada debate, gue yang lagi stress mikirin itu malah keluar semua emosi gue. yah lumayan refreshing.

Oke cukup segini dulu deh, gue mau ngerjain peer yang numpuk nih abis posting semua entries ini. BTW FOLLOW OFFICIAL TWITTER NINERS ENGLISH CLUB YAH @NinersEClub

“I always remember that day. The day when I did wrong way. Out of my conscious.. and finally I’m here… in this damn jail.. far away from my old house, Seoul. How stupid I’m in that time. Now I face the blue.. and I promise to not do the same thing like I did two years ago. It started when my parents die …… here is the story that I want to share.”

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“are you ready to go to school, Sara?” asked my friend, named Ann.
“surely, let’s go” I said.

My name is Sara Hudgson. People usually call me Sara. I have a best friend, named Ann. She always beside me since 4 years ago. Hmmmm 4 years ago… was in 2007, a damn year. how can I forget that year? how can I forget the year when my mother passed away? 2007, a damn year, I decided to pick my stuffs to Orphage in Busan, far away from my relatives. Here, I found Ann, an active girl. Since then, I have become her friend. She always picked me up to go to school together.

One day.
‘Sara, I do happy now!!! Hihihi I just a million stars have attacked my smooth heart since yesterday afternoon! Oh My.’
‘ oh really? How come? It’s too irrational hahaha’
‘not too irrational with people who are falling in love, dear’
‘ah you! Please tell me about your crush! Don’t let me hit you now!’
‘I saw a boy. I don’t think he’s handsome at all. But his smile made me teackled pink’ Ann said.
‘for his name, I don’t know exactly, but when I saw at his nametag and it wrote nggg I guess Marcell’ Ann continued.
‘I can’t believe that! Are you sure?’ I shocked when she said Marcell is the Ann’s crush.
‘ I think he is in our grade. But I don’t know what’s his class … do you know it? And why you look so surprised?’
‘ oh hmmmm well, I don’t know either. Shocked? Absolutely! Ah I mean …..’ I just stuck to say another words.
‘oh, hmmm I mean. I ever see him. And you’re right. He is quite popular among the teachers.’ I tried my best to hide my feeling, so that she couldn’t know about my real feeling.

Ugh why this situation came immediately, God!

‘Sara? Sara! Ah do you pile up again hah?’
‘oh yeah. I’m sorry hehehe’

Finally we arrived at school. We studied as usual. Hmmm I was not an active girl, but I think I’m not too bad in the class. Because I’m too shy to answered teacher’s question, I always requested Ann to answer that. And absolutely, there were all from me. My answers!

This situation always happened. Absolutely I did hate that thing, but what a poor I am … I couldn’t make myself free. I didn’t have any courage to answer it by myself. And that was one more trouble came from my brave less. Not only couldn’t answered my teacher’s, but also confessed my feeling to Marcell. It was uneasy personalities.

In 2009, it was the year that made me seeing red! Felt so uncomfortable when I met Ann. I didn’t know why I had to face that fate. Immediately, Ann got the first rank in our school. And unfortunately I became the second. Whereas I had to always be the first to make my ‘mother’ (not a real mother) proud of me. After I looked into my scores, I got a bolt from the blue. Suddenly I saw Marcell hug Ann tightly and congratulated her. Curiously I searched the Ann’s fact, what happened to Ann and Marcell.

I asked Antoni, who walked beside me, he said that they were both in the date since yesterday night. ‘oh, so that’s the reason why she couldn’t meet me to teach me? Hah’ it so disturbed my mental. After knew all the things, I back to the orphage. My only hope was my mother didn’t get angry to me.

But that things happened! How an awful day! Arrrgh I felt like a wolf. I really wanted to kill Ann! My ‘mother’ really disappointed with me.

‘how about your score? Is it good? Are you still become the first?’
‘not really, my scores are less than last term. I really worry can’t enter Ajou University’ I sighed.
‘ huh, so who is in the first rank?’
‘ ngggg …………. A-Ann. Yeah she got the first rank’ I got more frustrated.
‘why don’t you push yourself to be like her? One weakness that you have to change! To be a brave girl! Try to be close to your teacher like Ann did. You always became the first rank! Don’t let your score less than Ann’s!’

Impatiently, I left my ‘mother’ and went to my room. I do dislike people who didn’t know anything about me and try to give me too much advises! After I changed my uniform to tight cloths, I went to bar and got my night there. I drank alcohol quite excessively. I really got drunk.

Unconsciously, I went to Ann’s house. At that time she was alone in her big house. Her house door didn’t lock yet, so I could enter her house freely. Still with all my unconsciously I went to her kitchen and picked a sharp knife. Then, I went to the second floor, a place where Ann already have slept.

When I arrived to her room, she woke up, she extremely shouted ‘WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM WITH THE KIND OF KNIFE?! DO YOU WANT TO KILL ME? PLEASE I BEG YOU TO CONSCIOUS YOURSELF, SARA! I’M ANN! YOUR BEST FRIEND!!!’

‘huk (cough) ya! I really want to kill you! Huk. Hey you. Huk. I want to kill you. Huk. I want to be wolf tonight. Huk. I want to eat your body. Huk. Hehehehe. Huk. You. Huk. hah what’s wrong with you hah? Huk. do you think that you can date Marcell? Huk. hah? Huk. I ya my name is Sara! I’m Sara and Sara doo dislike Ann who date my believe crush! Huk. how a green to envy I turn on! Huk. and one thing that.. huk. so important to know by you. huk I’m Sara, I’m a smart girl! Huk. and you’re the dumb girl! Huk. But I think you’re the fortunate girl, right? Huk. As the first rank huk. You’re the bastard! huk. Huh. Huk. I hate you so much Ann! Huk. Huk.’

‘what do you mean? I really don’t understand! Oh okay okay I will not asked you why. Whatever they are please forgive me. I will not do the same again. Please put the knife down! Am I still your best friend?’ Ann begged.

‘hah. Huk. Really? Hmmmm you’re a bad girl. Huk. How come I believe on you? Hah? Huk. Your apologize is soooo useless to me. Huk. Just become your bullshit. Huk. Hehehe’

And finally, with all my unconscious, I killed her. And I’m Sara. Sara who were poor girl, out of the blue, her neighborhood called police after heard Ann’s scream and not long after that, three polices caught red handed while I took the knife out from her lung.

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At the end, here I’m now. Ended up in the jail. 2 years later, police will set me free from this damn ‘palace’. Now I’m really regret what I’ve done to my best friend. now, I’m realize that turn green to envy just bring us many miseries.

Yesterday, police brought me to psychologist, and one of them told me that I had to keep alcohol away. In this damn ‘palace’ I finally try to close to my God. And now, I realize that no body’s perfect without God’s directions.

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Waaah itu tadi cerpen yang berhasil gue bikin tuh, itu sebenernya tugas LIA dan itu tugas kelompok, tapi gue yang buat jalan ceritanya (karena kertas dikasih ke gue) tapi judulnya buatan kak angga tuh. Gimana tanggapan kalian? Kalo kata guru gue sih jangan pake kata kasar. Hahaha tapi gue kalo nulis emang kebawa emosi sih. Biar readers gue tau gimana geregetnya orang mau bunuh sahabatnya. Ah, gue harap kalian nggak negative thinking to me yaaa. Karena itu cuma emosi seorang author. Yang mau jadi author pasti tau deh hahaha ;D ^^v see you in my next entries!!!!

sebenernya ini tugas dari LIA. dari pada ngendep di notebook gue, mending gue posting deh disini. hmmmm isinya bukan real cerita gue kok. ini kan demi tugas, jadi gue buat khusus narasi aja. happy reading bloggers

Everybody certainly ever felt falling in love. Hmmm falling in love? Maybe it’s so familiar among the teenagers. The feeling that can makes you feel interested. The excitement feeling when you meet him and always thinking about him. I believe that people who falling in love always do the unusual things, such as like smiling only just remember her crush, feel the blue when hear the bad information about her crush, until speaking with herself, or with other things like pillow or her doll about what’s happening in that day with her crush. So crazy ……………

I ever felt falling in love with one of my seniors in my old school. Let’s give him a name Andy. The feeling is so complicated. I was so happy when he greeted me first. Just by saw his eyes I can feel the wind passed beside me. Just by saw his smile, I could smile and remembered his beautiful and cute face. Oh, it was so cute, I could smile only remember my old story. But on the other side, I often felt blue because I thought I just could see him only 1.5 years in that school. And during 1.5 years, I just could be his admirer without any bravery to confess my feeling. It was so stuck position when I knew that he was not the type to make the relationship. He was the smart senior in my old school. So it realized me to go far from him, yeah… I really afraid to disturb him and his score.

In the first year, I closed enough with him. He tried to support me when I got troubles. Told me that someday I could finish all my problems by myself. Told me that I had to pray and always fight to face my own problems. It was the wise advices he told me. I miss him and his presences. I miss his cute smiles. Oh my God! But in the end of the year. I slowly tried to stay away from him. But actually I couldn’t.

His year in that school finished. He got the best rank with the best score. I realized it. He was both smart and diligent enough. Actually the one that gave me spirit to reach all of my dreams was him. He was not only became my senior but also my idol and my motivator. But after he graduated, I felt empty. I often got blank during my study. I couldn’t concentrate anymore.

My friend said that I had to forget him and tried to make my own decision.

Hmmmm I get my own words. If I love him, I shall give my best to proof that I can be the next Andy and always pray the best way for him in his new school. Although I’ll get the different school, I don’t have to feel sad or disappointed, I shall be thankful could meet him because I already have met the good boy that tough me what is the life, and the struggle, and gave the best experiences. Thank you, Andy

Tanggal 03 juli 2011, gue berangkat ke LIA, ngepas banget dah. Gue kelo makan emang lama. Hmmmm. Sangat lama. Karena gue memperaktekan hidup sehat guys! 28-32 kali kunyahan! *bilang aja lelet!* tapi anehnya, gimana kalo kita makan makanan yang kecil? Agak rempong ya cyyiin kalo harus lama banget begitu. Terus kalo lo masukin burger dalam sekali makan gimana tuh? Apa cukup 32 kali kunyahan. Gue yakin sih lebih. Kecuali si Patrick, temennya Spongebob, yang makan burger langsung lebp *gue jadi inget iklan sosis so nice* (ups). Tapi gue yakin Islam nggak ngajarin sifat greedy kok :D

(maaf kalo kalian baca ini pas siang, pas kalian aus. Terus mbayangin burger besar, yang bahkan kedua tangan kalian nggak cukup megangnya, ditambah dengan daging yang cesss pessss bsssss) *author dilempar ke jurang*

Nyampe sana, gue langsung melesat ke lantai tiga (inget program kesehatan gue: ngurusin perut) hahaha. Untung miss belom dateng. Legaaa. Eh tunggu dulu! Kok dimeja gue ada minum? Ah padahal gue pikir itu dari pengagum rahasia gitu kan, tau gue lagi capek lari dari tangga ke tangga, atau tau gue belom minum gitu kan. tapi gue memupuskan harapan itu. HALLOOOO??? Tinggal setengah woy? Lo jadi pengagum rahasia juga nggak harus seirit itu kalo tau nggak bakal gue terima!! Apa itu bekas kobokan? Apa itu air yang netes dari AC? Ya sapa tau gitu dia lagi iseng, buka jendela LIA, terus air yang netes tetes demi tetes dia wadahin, sebagai kenangan gitu? Bisa aja kan?

Dari pada gue koleksi perjuangan orang itu, mending gue buang aja tuh. Akhirnya gue buang aja. Ya daripada gue simpen buat apa coba? Dengan berat hati gue buang. Yah mau gimana lagi? Terpaksa dibuang kan? *kumohon jangan tabok akuuuuuu*

Begitu pertamanya belajar, dikasih materi dulu bentar, tentang perang jaman bahela yang ada di korea selatan. Jadi ada program televise (KBS) yang mempertayangkan tayangan ‘searching for separated family’ ada yang bikin gue ngakak nih. Jadi ceritanya salah satu tokohnya itu namanya hyun chul. Seeeettt langsung yang ada di otak gue si HeeChul, abang yang dipaksa inas jadi abangnya *lo nggak nyambung kalimat gue ya? Sama gue juga*

Tugas udah selesai. Miss keluar, nggak tau ngapain. Akhirnya gue (yang sekelompok sama kak angga, al fahry, sama denya) ngobrol. Gue nggak tau topik apaan yang lagi dibahas sama anak di kelas ini (kebanyakan smanda) jadi gue dengerin aja. Intinya ada bule (sepupunya al fahry) dia dari amerika, pindah ke smanda. Dan menurut mereka sebagai seorang cowok, nada ngomongnya nggak kayak cowok (gue harap kalian ngerti). Tapi malah menurut gue pasti menarik tuh. Jadi gue bukan ngetawain anak itu, tapi ngetawain gaya cerita kak yudha dengan muka yang dibuat buat. Biar mirip sama anak itu. 11 12 sama olga deh. Suaranya dimiripin banget. Dibuat image anak cowok yang imut, gemulai, cantik, dan manja. Serius!

Terus, masih dengan kelompok yang sama, ada games lagi nih. Jadi kita itu harus ngumpulin duit. Yang paling banyak dapet duit itu lah yang menang. Tapi bukan duit beneran hahaha. Miss keluar bentar buat ngambil duit monopoli. Jadi kita harus jawab, yang bisa dikasih duit. Yang paling dikit ngumpulin duit nanti dikasih hukuman. Jadi hasilnya team gue ngumpulin 5.700 sedangkan yang laen dibawah kelompok gue. Udah seneng banget lah itu :D eh nggak taunya miss selip! Harusnya ngasih 500 malah ngambil 5000 gue dan team gue langsung ngakak sakit perut. Tapi yang jelas team gue nggak kalah. Yang kalah itu teamnya amel, salwa, kak refi sama kak joe. Hahaha. Hukumannya? Jangan ngakak ya. CHICKEN DANCE LAGEEEE!!!!! Tonet tonet tonet tonet tenenet tenet tenet tonet tonet tenet tenet~~~ Tonet tonet tonet tonet tenenet tenet tenet tonet tonet tenet tenet~~~ teeeeeet teneeeeettt teneeet neeeet~~ teeeeeet teneeeeettt teneeet neeeet~~ hahaha. Kalau boleh gue foto pasti kalian pada shock. Hahaha oh iya. Yang paling semangat si bule dari Indonesia itu si kak refi! Sumprit aja gue ngakak ngeliatin dia. Dia begitu menghayati lagu. Yang lain nggak ditekuk lututnya eh dia ditekuk. Sambil serius dia ngeliatin gerakannya. Sakit perut. Guling guling. Nggebuk meja! Gila tu anak bikin gila. Tapi tetep nggak sadar, masih fokus sama hukumannya. ALLAH! :D

Terus gue sebagai orang yang hobinya joget. Walaupun gue nggak dihukum, tapi gue juga ikutan joget hahaha. Menyenangkan sekali :D terus dilanjutkan sama lagu
‘if you happy and you know it clap your hand *prok prok prok*
if you happy and you know it clap your hand *prok prok prok*
if you happy and you know it than you surely want to show it if you happy and you know it clap your hand *prok prok prok*
if you happy and you know it stamp your feet *dug dug dug (hha?)
if you happy and you know it stamp your feet *dug dug dug (hha?)
if you happy and you know it than you surely want to show it if you happy and you know it stamp your feet *dug dug dug (hha?)
if you happy and you know it say OK *OK!*
if you happy and you know it say OK *OK!*
if you happy and you know it than you surely want to show it if you happy and you know it say OK *OK!*

hahahaha.. lucu banget dah..

terus permainan berubah lagi, kali ini tinggal yang masangin (menjodohkan) *ah lu kira gue mak comblang apa!* dan disitu gue dikelompokin sama orang yang sebenernya pinter. Tapi cengengesan *gue juga termasuk* jadi yaudah. Kalah ya nggak apa. Menang Alhamdulillah *pasrah amat woooy* eh entah dewi fortuna lagi nyasar apa salah ngasih keberkahan? Yang jelas kelompok gue menang.

Nggak cuma itu, jadi ada sejenis kontak jodoh. Hmmm iya.. nggak juga sih.. anggep aja iya deh -_-
Jadi di situ, pas lagi maen sama kelompok itu. diceritakan bahwa deni yang sedang digosipkan oleh teman teman, bahwasannya dia lagi suka sama salwa. Sedangkan dia nggak berani ngungkapin perasaannya. Jadi selama permainan kak joe yang terus terusan battle sama salwa. Jadilah mereka mengancam kak joe buat menang. Jangan mentang mentang suka terus laju ngalah. Tapi! Dua kali giliran dia dia kalah terus sama salwa! Jadi kelompok gue pada nganjem joe buat nggak battle-an lagi sama salwa dan membiarkan deni yang battle. Tapi karena deni nggak berani akhirnya kak joe terus. Rupanya ada gossip lagi yang beredar, ternyata angga suka sama denya. Hal itu diungkapkan olehnya sama kak yudha. Jadilah ada dua kisah cinta. Yang satu cinta segitiga dan satunya lagi cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan.

Selama casting cerita itu kerjaan gue nggebukin mejaaaa terus (kasian banget dah mejanya). Tapi yang diatas itu boongan kok. Sedikit untuk menambah kisah perfilman Indonesia aja (hha????). cerita itu dibuat sama kak yuda sama kak angga.

Akhirnya LIA berakhir juga, dan itu benar benar sukses membuat perut gue jadi laper lagi setelah buka. Okay bloggers, see you